Stupid Mistakes

Friday night was the back to school bonfire. They have it every year and someone always brings alcohol! After all the drama with Ryan and the fire I thought it would be fun. I was hanging out with Sammi, Alex,Kristina, and Todd when Ryan showed up with a girl. I couldn't help wishing I was that girl. "Well can we say awkard?" Alex asked. " Just hand me a beer." I replied. My brother's and my sister Kit would be pissed at me but I wasn't thinking at the moment. "Hey Sunny. I got some pills if u want to try them. Their awesome." Todd told me. "Ok. I'll take a few." I replied. I was flying high later and having a lot of fun too but that all changed when I spotted Ryan talking to Bob. I got closer so I could hear what they were saying. "You can't tell Sunny the truth Ryan. Your gonna ruin everything." Bob yelled. " She needs to know that I work for you and I have just been using her to get to her family and the gang. I like her a lot and I can't stand to hurt her anymore." Ryan replied. I felt so sick. How could he do this? I mean cheating on me is one thing but this I would never get over. " How could you do this? I trusted you. I opened up to you and you knew how hard that was for me. You used me to get to my family and the gang. " I screamed. "Sunny I didn't know your were there." Ryan said. " Yeah well I saw you with Bob. What are you doing talking to that garbage?" I asked. "He works for me honey. He's a soc like me and you better watch it kid." Bob said. "I'll let you handle this." He told Ryan and then walked away. "Your a soc?" I screamed. "Yeah." Ryan said. My heart was racing and I felt really sick. " Did you know Logan was going to kill Dante?" I asked. "I try to stop him Sunny but he wouldn't listen and that's why I helped you and Sammi turn him into the cops." He replied. "Oh so you felt guilty? Well you should. Dante trusted you. I trusted you. You watched Sammi and I fall apart over his death and you never told us the truth. How could you do this to Dante? To us?" I cried. "I'm sorry Sunny." He said. "Did you know what Bob was going to do to Soda and Katie? What about my sister or Johnny and Kat?" I asked. "I wanted to stop him but I couldn't." That was all Ryan could say. I felt so helpless and guilty for even falling for Ryan. "Just go Ryan." I yelled. "I'm so sorry I hurt you." He said as he walked away. I had to get out of there. I needed to think and to be alone. I was feeling so sick from the alcohol and pills and then everything Ryan told me. I ran home crying. "Sunny what's wrong?" Soda asked as I stumbled through the door. I went to bathroom and started throwing up. After about 20 mintues I made my way to my room and shut the door. I curled up with my blankets and Mr. Cuddles my teddy bear and cried till my chest hurt.