Stupid Mistakes

Friday night was the back to school bonfire. They have it every year and someone always brings alcohol! After all the drama with Ryan and the fire I thought it would be fun. I was hanging out with Sammi, Alex,Kristina, and Todd when Ryan showed up with a girl. I couldn't help wishing I was that girl. "Well can we say awkard?" Alex asked. " Just hand me a beer." I replied. My brother's and my sister Kit would be pissed at me but I wasn't thinking at the moment. "Hey Sunny. I got some pills if u want to try them. Their awesome." Todd told me. "Ok. I'll take a few." I replied. I was flying high later and having a lot of fun too but that all changed when I spotted Ryan talking to Bob. I got closer so I could hear what they were saying. "You can't tell Sunny the truth Ryan. Your gonna ruin everything." Bob yelled. " She needs to know that I work for you and I have just been using her to get to her family and the gang. I like her a lot and I can't stand to hurt her anymore." Ryan replied. I felt so sick. How could he do this? I mean cheating on me is one thing but this I would never get over. " How could you do this? I trusted you. I opened up to you and you knew how hard that was for me. You used me to get to my family and the gang. " I screamed. "Sunny I didn't know your were there." Ryan said. " Yeah well I saw you with Bob. What are you doing talking to that garbage?" I asked. "He works for me honey. He's a soc like me and you better watch it kid." Bob said. "I'll let you handle this." He told Ryan and then walked away. "Your a soc?" I screamed. "Yeah." Ryan said. My heart was racing and I felt really sick. " Did you know Logan was going to kill Dante?" I asked. "I try to stop him Sunny but he wouldn't listen and that's why I helped you and Sammi turn him into the cops." He replied. "Oh so you felt guilty? Well you should. Dante trusted you. I trusted you. You watched Sammi and I fall apart over his death and you never told us the truth. How could you do this to Dante? To us?" I cried. "I'm sorry Sunny." He said. "Did you know what Bob was going to do to Soda and Katie? What about my sister or Johnny and Kat?" I asked. "I wanted to stop him but I couldn't." That was all Ryan could say. I felt so helpless and guilty for even falling for Ryan. "Just go Ryan." I yelled. "I'm so sorry I hurt you." He said as he walked away. I had to get out of there. I needed to think and to be alone. I was feeling so sick from the alcohol and pills and then everything Ryan told me. I ran home crying. "Sunny what's wrong?" Soda asked as I stumbled through the door. I went to bathroom and started throwing up. After about 20 mintues I made my way to my room and shut the door. I curled up with my blankets and Mr. Cuddles my teddy bear and cried till my chest hurt.

Trapped: Part 3

I wasn't sure where I was and I kept hearing a beep beep beep. There was a bright light and voices. I opened my eyes to see my family and the gang sitting and standing around me. "OH MY GOSH! Sunny your awake. You almost died. You were not breathing when we brought u and Sammi here. They told us once they revived u that u could still die." Kit cried. "Don't ever do that again." Darry said. Soda and Pony were jumping up and down screaming "yea yea yea." I wanted to talk but the oxygen mask was in the way. "You got a lot of get well presents. I can help u eat the muffins." Johnny told me. I had to smile at that. Two-bit and Kit got me a mickey mouse snow globe. Steve got me a camera, Dally a scrapbook, my brothers got me a giant teddy bear, Kat got me the complete set of Ernest movies and there are gummi bears from Emily and more candy from Jamie, Elena, Dimitri,Carson, and Mark. Thank you guys for saving me and Sammi and for all the presents. I LOVE U ALL! If it wasn't for u Sammi and I would be dead. U ROCK!

Trapped: Part 2

..we went to check on some of the other rooms to see if there was any way out. "Shit. We have to get out of here." Sammi choked out. "I know. I can't breathe with all this smoke and my asthama is kicking in." I said. We tried to put some of flames out with blankets but it was no use. We sat inside Sammi's closet. We screamed for my brothers, my sister, Kat, Johnny, Two-bit, and the rest of the gang. We wanted them to know where we were. After awhile we both went quiet. My mind was going crazy with pictures of my family and the gang. I didn't want to die yet but I was and somehow it was peaceful and easy. Life is harder. I closed my eyes and fell into total darkness...

Trapped: Part 1

I was hanging out with Sammi at her house. We were hanging out in Dante's room. I had lied to Darry and told him that Sammi's parents would be home but they went out for the night. I knew we shouldn't of been by ourselves cause Bob and all but that night I didn't care cause after the whole Ryan cheating thingy I needed a break. So were looking through one of Dante's old yearbooks when we heard hammering coming from outside. We went to check it out. "I can't get the front door opened." Sammi told me. "Your back door won't open either." I told her. We tried to open the windows but they wouldn't budge. "What's going on?" I asked Sammi. "I dont know but I bet socs have something to do with it." She replied. "Do u smell that?" I asked. "Yeah. It smells like smoke." She said. We could see smoke coming from the back of her house. I grabbed the phone and dialed 911 and then called my house. Kit answered. She said she would get everyone and they would be there soon. I could tell she was crying. We went to check some o

I Hate You But I Still Love You

I was hanging out with the gang at the park. We were just having fun playing on the slides and acting like dorks. "Hey Sunny isn't that Ryan?" Pony asked me. I turned to see who he was talking about . "It is. I'll be back." I told everyone. I started to run towards Ryan when I noticed there was a girl with him. I watched as he kissed her. I could feel my heart breaking. "Oh my gosh. What is he doing?" I heard Kat yell. Ryan heard her and turned to look at me. I ran away with tears streaming down my face. "Sunny wait please. I'm sorry baby. Please let me explain." Ryan yelled after me. "What's there to explain? Your a cheating,lying,jerk,and a heart breaker. I never should of trusted you." I screamed. "Leave my sister the hell alone you asshole." Kit told Ryan after she punched him. My brother's and the gang took their turn at him. I just ran home crying. I locked myself in my room. I hate him so much but I still love him. Everyone tried to cheer me up but I was too depressed. I still am.

Sister Day!

This one is for my sister KitKat who is always there for me even when im not always there for her. Sorry Kit and your the best big sister anyone can have. Friday started out horrible..I had to go to school which sucked and then I had to go to the doctor for my asthma checkup. Ugh..Darry had to schedule "After" school of course. Kit ended up taking me and then afterwards we went out for ice cream and shopping! I had saved up some money and Darry gave us 40 bucks. We had a blast harrassing people and acting like dorks. We went to the mall and rode on this thing they had set up inside. Its suppose to make u feel like your on a roller coaster. Everyone in the mall probably thought we were crazy. We screamed so loud. I had so much just hanging with my sister and it took a lot of stuff off my mind. That was the best Sister Day ever! Thanks KitKat. Luv u big sis and im sorry I haven't been spending more time with u lately. Thanks for being there for me through all the shit lately.

School Sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So I started school the other day...Talk about boring. Darry says I have to pay attention instead of sleeping like I normally do. Ugh..fine Darry whatever you say. My locker is right next to Sammi's and we have all the same teachers and classes so at least that is fun cause we talk a lot and throw paper wads and spit balls too...which is why I got detention on the first day. Darry was pissed. "Sunny Sky Curtis. What the hell?" He yelled when I got home at 6pm. "Detention." I replied. He sighed at sat on the couch. "I'm not even going to ask." He said. It was hard going to school though. Everyone was staring at Sammi and me and we could here them whispering about Dante and getting Logan thrown in jail for life. "So how are you guys doing?" Kristina asked while Sammi and I were chilling at our lockers. "Fine." We both lied. We must of had 50 people ask us how we were doing. We both just lied and said were ok and of course they bought it and we didn't mean it once. They day got worse when I found out Logan's younger brother Joshua is in most of my classes and I have to sit by him. I wanted to crawl under my seat. "Your one of them that got my brother thrown in jail?" He asked me in history class. "Yeah. I would say sorry but i'm not." I replied. "Fair enough. But you better watch your back cause you got a giant target on it now." He said. "Great. Just fucking wonderful." I thought to myself. How did my life become such a nightmare? "So how was school?" Soda asked me when I got home. "A fucking disaster." I replied. "Sunny Sky Curtis watch your mouth." Darry yelled from the kitchen. Soda and I just laughed. "So it was that bad?" Soda asked. "You have no idea. I have Logan's younger brother to deal with now and he says all the socs want to kill me, people keep staring at me and Sammi and I hate my teachers." I replied. "Well your not going anywhere by yourself now and Sammi and your boyfriend Ryan better do the same." Soda told me. "It's fine. I can handle it." I said. "No you will not!" Darry yelled. "I'm not a baby Darry." I replied. I swear he treats me like i'm 2 instead of 13. "I know but Bob is going crazy and who knows what he will try to do to you guys. He's pissed you got Logan thrown in jail for life!" He told me. So pretty much thanks to those stupid socs Dante is dead, we put Logan in jail so now all the socs want us dead, I have to deal with Joshua at school, and school just sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!