Crazy Day

Ok..so I know I already posted once but that didn't really count so I thought I would do an actual post. This was was hard to write. Yesturday I got in a huge fight with my best friend. Sometimes it takes awhile but you learn who your true friends are. It takes years to build up trust but only one second to destroy it.

"So what shall we do today?" I asked my best friend Sammi as we walked along the railroad tracks. "Umm..well there is something I wanted to ask you." She replied. "What it is?" I asked curiously. "I wanted to go to this concert tonight with Matt but my parents won't let me go unless I take a friend. Kristina has plans and so does Lexi. So I was wondering if you wanted to double date with Ryan cause I know you like him. So I asked him and he said he would love to go with you. I was just wondering if you will go?" She asked. I froze. How could she ask me this. She knows I hate music. " No!" I replied angrily. " What is with you?" She snapped back. "You know I hate music Sammi." I replied sadly. " You have got to get over that. I mean just cause your parents died and you hate music your going to ruin my chance to finally go out with Matt. I asked Ryan out for you and this is how you repay your best friend. Your parents are dead and they ain't coming back so snap out of it. Move on." Sammi yelled. I stood there shocked for a few mintues. " Why does every damn song make you so depressed?" Her words broke through my thoughts. I turned towards her with tears in my eyes and unleashed everything inside me that had been bottled up. " You have no idea what it is like to lose someone you love. You know why I hate music? Why every song makes me so damn depressed? It's cause when I hear music or just any song. It reminds me of what I lost. I can see my dad and mom and how happy we were. I can picture my dad and me singing. I can even smell the wood off his old beat up guitar. It's like i'm in a place where I can see them and the past but as hard as I try I can't bring them back." I screamed. Sammi stared at me and said in a serious tone. "They have been dead for awhile now. Can't you find away to move on? Your brother Soda is right when he tells you not to give up music." I couln't believe it she was actually using my brothers words against me. "I'm done with music. It's hurts too much so I quit and don't try to use what Soda said against me. It won't work." I yelled. " Fine but have you ever thought that the reason it hurts too much is becomes you can't see past your own pain?" She asked. " I'm done talking about this. I trusted you of all people to understand but I was wrong so were through." I said. As I walked away she yelled " I will tell Ryan you don't want to go out." "I have his number and I don't need you to hook me up with someone."