Going Nuts

"Please Darry. I'm going nuts. I can't wait till tomorrow. I need air now." I begged. All I wanted to do was go on a walk but Darry was refusing to let me go. "Sunny you need to take an easy. You almost died." He replied. I gave Soda who was sitting on the couch a pleading look. "No way. Im staying out of it." He said. "Pretty please?" I asked while making my best puppy dog face. Darry sighed. "Ok but i'm going with you." He said. "Yea! We should go see Kat." I replied. It was a nice night. The sunset was amazing. We ended up hanging out with Kat for a couple hours. We talked about Ryan. I told her how scared I was to be with him cause I never thought I could love him. I mean i'm only 13. She told me not to walk away just because I was scared. I didn't want to wonder what could of been later on. We talked about how we want to stomp the socs. It was a fun night and I was glad Darry had let me out of the house. I had started to make escape plans. I can't stand being confined. I go nuts after awhile.

I thought I was going to die

So on saturday Ryan took me out Dairy Queen and then we went to the water park. We went on all the slides and had a huge water fight. Ryan was chasing me around with a water gun when I ran right into some socs. "Well well well it looks like we found us a little greaser." One of them said. "Get away from my girlfriend." Ryan yelled. "I don't think so buddy. This young lady here is a Curtis and were going to have some fun with her first."You better back off." I snapped. "What you going to do? Tell your brother Soda? How is Soda and his pretty little wife doing?" He asked sarcastically. I lost it and kicked him in a very painful place. Ryan started punching some of the others who were trying to get to me. I went to kick the guy again when he punched me in the chest. That was all it took for me to go down. I couldn't breathe and I was having an asthma attack. Ryan flipped out and all the socs took off. Ryan got a medic who had to give me a shot cause I was going into asthmatic shock. I thought I was dying!

Ryan

"So you hate music?" Ryan asked as he walked me home. We had both ended up in after school detention so it was after 5pm. " Yeah. I know it sounds crazy." I whispered. " No. I mean if my mom died I think I would feel the same way about movies. We have movie night like every night at 10 when she gets home from work. It's really the only time we get to hangout." He replied. " I wish Sammi could understand?" I said. "Yeah well Sammi has always been more about herself." Ryan told me. "So you never talk about your dad. Is there a reason?" I asked. Ryan was silent for a few. "You don't have to tell me if you don't want to." I said. "It's ok. I don't know my dad. He left my mom as soon as he found out she was pregnant. I don't ever want to know him. It's not so much about me as it is about my mom. I mean I don't see how he could of left her." He replied. " Your poor mom." I said horrified. "Yeah. I know." Ryan replied. "Well this is my house. Do you want to hangout?" I asked. " Yeah. I would love to." He said. We ended washing Darry's truck. Well actually we played more in the water than washing the truck. I don't think my brothers were happy about me bringing a boy home. I introduced him to the gang. Everyone was nice but I could tell they don't think I should be with Ryan. Maybe it's cause i'm the youngest. He's going to take me out to eat and then to the water park tomorrow:>

Crazy Day

Ok..so I know I already posted once but that didn't really count so I thought I would do an actual post. This was was hard to write. Yesturday I got in a huge fight with my best friend. Sometimes it takes awhile but you learn who your true friends are. It takes years to build up trust but only one second to destroy it.

"So what shall we do today?" I asked my best friend Sammi as we walked along the railroad tracks. "Umm..well there is something I wanted to ask you." She replied. "What it is?" I asked curiously. "I wanted to go to this concert tonight with Matt but my parents won't let me go unless I take a friend. Kristina has plans and so does Lexi. So I was wondering if you wanted to double date with Ryan cause I know you like him. So I asked him and he said he would love to go with you. I was just wondering if you will go?" She asked. I froze. How could she ask me this. She knows I hate music. " No!" I replied angrily. " What is with you?" She snapped back. "You know I hate music Sammi." I replied sadly. " You have got to get over that. I mean just cause your parents died and you hate music your going to ruin my chance to finally go out with Matt. I asked Ryan out for you and this is how you repay your best friend. Your parents are dead and they ain't coming back so snap out of it. Move on." Sammi yelled. I stood there shocked for a few mintues. " Why does every damn song make you so depressed?" Her words broke through my thoughts. I turned towards her with tears in my eyes and unleashed everything inside me that had been bottled up. " You have no idea what it is like to lose someone you love. You know why I hate music? Why every song makes me so damn depressed? It's cause when I hear music or just any song. It reminds me of what I lost. I can see my dad and mom and how happy we were. I can picture my dad and me singing. I can even smell the wood off his old beat up guitar. It's like i'm in a place where I can see them and the past but as hard as I try I can't bring them back." I screamed. Sammi stared at me and said in a serious tone. "They have been dead for awhile now. Can't you find away to move on? Your brother Soda is right when he tells you not to give up music." I couln't believe it she was actually using my brothers words against me. "I'm done with music. It's hurts too much so I quit and don't try to use what Soda said against me. It won't work." I yelled. " Fine but have you ever thought that the reason it hurts too much is becomes you can't see past your own pain?" She asked. " I'm done talking about this. I trusted you of all people to understand but I was wrong so were through." I said. As I walked away she yelled " I will tell Ryan you don't want to go out." "I have his number and I don't need you to hook me up with someone."

My first Post!

Hey Everyone,
This is my first blog:> My name is Sunny Sky Curtis. I'm the youngest of the Curtis siblings. I just turned 13 back on May 29th. I'm in the 8th grade at Tulsa Middle School. I love to read. I'm alot like my older brother Ponyboy but i'm wild and reckless like my other older brother Sodapop and my older sister KitKat and I love sports just like my oldest brother Darry. I have asthma though so Darry doesn't let me run around too much. I've had it since I was 5 years old. It sucks cause anything like running too much, dust, flowers, or geting sick can cause me to have an attack. My brothers and sister and even the gang is real good at making sure i'm ok. Darry stocks up on coffee a lot cause in case you didn't know coffee beans open up your airways. If i'm having an attack and I can't get to my inhaler I can use coffee. I've had to do it before. It's so gross! I miss mom and dad a lot. Mom use to read to me all the time and dad would sit and play his old beat up guitar with me. We would get everyone together and just sing and play music. I haven't sang or played the guitar since mom and dad died. Soda says I need to cause dad wouldn't want me to give up music but I can't cause it hurts too much and I don't want to anymore. Things are just not the same anymore. I hate music! I know it sounds crazy. I mean everyone has a favorite song or singer. Ponyboy loves Britney Spears but to me music reminds me of what I lost so I don't listen to it and I don't play it anymore. Even though mom is gone I know I have KitKat to talk to when I want to talk about boys or other stuff. She understands almost eveything like Soda. Though Soda doesn't like to hear me talk about boys cause he says i'm to young. I love watching sunsets with Pony and Johnny. Johnny gets me like nobody else really can. He really is everyone's kid brother..well I guess I would actually be his kid sister. The rest of the gang is always picking on me cause i'm the youngest but they treat me like one of them cause they think i'm real mature for my age. I know the score and how things work. I might be 13 but i'm not a kid like Darry says I am. I hate be called or treated like a kid. It's so annoying! Well that is pretty much all you need to know about me so until next time....Later everyone:>